Closing In On Year 75!

Somehow this year seems a major milestone, one not sought out, yet always known as coming, more stalker than welcomed friend. I have outlived many of my associates, as I have now passed mankind's prescribed "three score and ten."

I am finding that much of what I believed, or at least the way I expressed it has been more status quo than I had thought, more comfortable, learned behavior passed down, and a growing conflict with what life experience and thus wisdom now points out. Every day I am compelled to share my heart in hope of adding value, though my sins, like as with Paul, so easily beset me.

I struggle with my body's warning pains (vs. growing pains) and yet have moments of high energy and hopes, the same as remembered during my younger days. Some days as I reflect on numerous victories, leadership highs and the brick and mortar edifices that memorialize my walk, I have to rein in my creativity lest some false sense of expectation grip my entrepreneurial soul.

I then settle down to reality, but that is difficult! That is when my Ecclesiastes-like reality sets in, as each day I realize that my window of greatest impact may have passed.

Surely there are places to add value beyond monetary philanthropy, which has always been a delight. Generosity has always come easy, though the greater joy found beyond mere giving, rather co-laboring with a network of equally sacrificing leaders. Those ventures are fewer and further apart, and as usual the young faces in the room seem as haunting reminders that at 75 most of my peers are now sitting in rockers on porches!

Some of my friends are unfortunately alone on their porch, their spouses preceeding them, a few even sleep in strange rooms with hollow hallways, their children of necessity having dealt with appropriate "placement" for their care.

For that reason, I am grateful for my companion and her inspiring vision of an energetic life still beyond age 100. Fantasy for me, though Tony Robbins brings some remedy in his latest book, Life Force.

Yes, I still have my snarky moments!

For me, impact is more critical than longevity and short of writing and the occasional land assemblage, that is a growing concern for this senior still young at heart! I'll find a way, even if it means a few nutraceuticals (a Robbins term, and by the way an inspiring read)!

Thanks for a Memorial Day moment of therapy, time to walk my four-legged companion, Coach.